[That's a pretty bold admission, and he actually feels a bit flustered by it. "Want" has a lot of implications behind it, and he's honestly not sure how to feel or handle that. Especially since...well...only one other person has ever felt like that toward him.]
It's not a matter of it's "okay" or not. [Or so he says, anyway. Honestly he's not sure what he's saying. He's not sure about anything right now.]
Look, Leia, I like you. [That is. Oddly strange to hear him say since now that word could carry a lot of different meanings and he's not sure what he even means.] I care about you and I like being with you. [...This is really sounding like his own version of a confession.]
But I don't feel the same as you do.
[Now that might be a lie, but it's also true for the moment at least. Because even if he likes her, even if he feels that bit of attraction... She knows she has those feelings for him. He doesn't. He doesn't know what it is he feels toward her, if it's just something that's between close friendship and something more. He could be in that small place right before that next step and never cross over it. He was even trying to cut whatever those "odd feelings" down before they worsened because he thought it would be wrong, no matter the circumstances.
But damn does this make him feel really bad. Even as he's talking he wonders if she'll start to hate him instead. If he's ruining their friendship. But if he can't be honest with himself, how could he be honest with her? As he told her before, he didn't want anymore relationships based on lies...and especially not with her.]
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It's not a matter of it's "okay" or not. [Or so he says, anyway. Honestly he's not sure what he's saying. He's not sure about anything right now.]
Look, Leia, I like you. [That is. Oddly strange to hear him say since now that word could carry a lot of different meanings and he's not sure what he even means.] I care about you and I like being with you. [...This is really sounding like his own version of a confession.]
But I don't feel the same as you do.
[Now that might be a lie, but it's also true for the moment at least. Because even if he likes her, even if he feels that bit of attraction... She knows she has those feelings for him. He doesn't. He doesn't know what it is he feels toward her, if it's just something that's between close friendship and something more. He could be in that small place right before that next step and never cross over it. He was even trying to cut whatever those "odd feelings" down before they worsened because he thought it would be wrong, no matter the circumstances.
But damn does this make him feel really bad. Even as he's talking he wonders if she'll start to hate him instead. If he's ruining their friendship. But if he can't be honest with himself, how could he be honest with her? As he told her before, he didn't want anymore relationships based on lies...and especially not with her.]