when he says that, her heart jumps into her throat. those are words she's secretly tried to imagine him saying to her since she realized her feelings, so hearing it in reality is... nice, in a way. then he continues, and the happy, fluttery feeling in her chest goes away as quickly as it came, leaving her with nothing but a heavy feeling in the pit of her stomach. ]
... okay. [ she's trying to be strong about this to keep from making him feel bad, but hearing him bluntly say that he doesn't feel the way that she does hurts. her eyes are starting to water with tears that she's trying her absolute hardest not to shed, and she brings a hand up to scrub at them for a moment, like maybe she can just wipe them away and feel better.
even if she never had a chance with jude, this is her first time actually being rejected. that's probably why it hurts so badly, and she's trying not to let that show, futile as it may be. there's a lot to be upset over, though. she's been rejected and told that what she wants can't happen. it's not even something she can hope for in the future, and on top of that, there's their friendship to think about.
just like him, she's worried about what this is going to mean for them. is he going to avoid her now? is it wrong of her to feel the way she does? she really doesn't know anymore. she may not be willing to tell him that she's hurting, but she can talk about that. ]
I don't want things to get weird between us. [ she looks to him as she says that. her eyes are still wet and her face is starting to get red in the way that people who are upset often get, but it could probably be worse. ] Even if you don't like me like that, we can still be friends, right?
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when he says that, her heart jumps into her throat. those are words she's secretly tried to imagine him saying to her since she realized her feelings, so hearing it in reality is... nice, in a way. then he continues, and the happy, fluttery feeling in her chest goes away as quickly as it came, leaving her with nothing but a heavy feeling in the pit of her stomach. ]
... okay. [ she's trying to be strong about this to keep from making him feel bad, but hearing him bluntly say that he doesn't feel the way that she does hurts. her eyes are starting to water with tears that she's trying her absolute hardest not to shed, and she brings a hand up to scrub at them for a moment, like maybe she can just wipe them away and feel better.
even if she never had a chance with jude, this is her first time actually being rejected. that's probably why it hurts so badly, and she's trying not to let that show, futile as it may be. there's a lot to be upset over, though. she's been rejected and told that what she wants can't happen. it's not even something she can hope for in the future, and on top of that, there's their friendship to think about.
just like him, she's worried about what this is going to mean for them. is he going to avoid her now? is it wrong of her to feel the way she does? she really doesn't know anymore. she may not be willing to tell him that she's hurting, but she can talk about that. ]
I don't want things to get weird between us. [ she looks to him as she says that. her eyes are still wet and her face is starting to get red in the way that people who are upset often get, but it could probably be worse. ] Even if you don't like me like that, we can still be friends, right?