[ she takes the moment where he's fumbling around and getting ready to catch her breath and just... think.
that last kiss didn't do anything to calm her down— not by a long shot— and even though she had been unsure when they started this, she's more certain than ever that it's what she wants. they're taking a big step, and maybe it is a little hasty to jump into having sex when they haven't even been together as a couple for a full day, but when has she ever not been impulsive and frankly a little reckless? and besides, she trusts him— she trusts that he's taking this seriously, and that his feelings for her are equally serious. his actions have helped her feel confident about that, too. every chance he's given her to change her mind, every bit of reassurance he's given her— all of those things, combined with her feelings for him, make it easy to feel like this is the right choice. that he's someone worth taking such a big step with, regardless of how quickly they're doing it.
of course, this is a pretty far cry from the ruined mess of a friendship they had only a few years ago, too— and that thought actually makes her feel happy, in a way. they've come a long way and they've both put a lot of work into repairing their friendship, and now it's blossoming into something more. if that isn't a testament to the wonders of hard work, what is?
that's what she's thinking as she feels his fingers threading through her hair, and she might even be smiling into the kiss when their lips first make contact, good as her mood is, though that changes quickly as she starts to kiss him back. she doesn't stop feeling happy or sure of herself, but those feelings end up mixing with the same sort of need she was feeling when he pulled away before, and she ends up trying to coax the kiss into becoming more open-mouthed (but maybe not quite as aggressive) as a result. ]
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that last kiss didn't do anything to calm her down— not by a long shot— and even though she had been unsure when they started this, she's more certain than ever that it's what she wants. they're taking a big step, and maybe it is a little hasty to jump into having sex when they haven't even been together as a couple for a full day, but when has she ever not been impulsive and frankly a little reckless? and besides, she trusts him— she trusts that he's taking this seriously, and that his feelings for her are equally serious. his actions have helped her feel confident about that, too. every chance he's given her to change her mind, every bit of reassurance he's given her— all of those things, combined with her feelings for him, make it easy to feel like this is the right choice. that he's someone worth taking such a big step with, regardless of how quickly they're doing it.
of course, this is a pretty far cry from the ruined mess of a friendship they had only a few years ago, too— and that thought actually makes her feel happy, in a way. they've come a long way and they've both put a lot of work into repairing their friendship, and now it's blossoming into something more. if that isn't a testament to the wonders of hard work, what is?
that's what she's thinking as she feels his fingers threading through her hair, and she might even be smiling into the kiss when their lips first make contact, good as her mood is, though that changes quickly as she starts to kiss him back. she doesn't stop feeling happy or sure of herself, but those feelings end up mixing with the same sort of need she was feeling when he pulled away before, and she ends up trying to coax the kiss into becoming more open-mouthed (but maybe not quite as aggressive) as a result. ]